10 weeks

well in an hour and half I'll be 10 weeks!
almost through with my first trimester!!
Called the medicaid lady today, she still doesn't have my paperwork, said to call her again on monday..ugh.
I've finished all the girl names in the baby name book, I highlighted ones i liked , but i've still got Audrei as my absolute favorite. I don't know why Justin is being a pain about it.

Yesterday I had such severe Stomach pains after laying in bed all day and it still not going away I had Justin take me to ER. after being poked and proded, and IV and fluids in me, and Ultra sound an being there for 6 hours they tell me I'm dehydrated and I have cysts on my ovaries AND I have an ulcer.
They did see that my baby was okay and I'm not as far along as they guessed from my last period. I'm just now 9 weeks today so my due date is about 5 days farther than we originally thought.
A nurse did come back and filled out all my medicaid paperwork and gave me name and number for my caseworker . said to give her a call in a couple days.

just.. UGH!!!

so I called today to the clinic , they transfered me to Ft.worth, said I had to bring all my papers there.. Justin didn't wanna drive all the way into downtown ft.worth so I called again and after explaining to the lady 3 times that I'm not in her system, I'm pregnant thats why i'm trying to get in the program she tells me " oh well we don't do that.. you'll have to do medicaid or something, we only take patients already in our system" are you freaking kidding me?!!! after I've already filled out all this paper work, why would they send me more forms if I can't even be admitted in the program... and I'm pissed because the only reason I even did this program was because the health dept said to!
ugh!! and I have NO idea how or where to go about doing medicaid.. not like I even have the freakin time since today was my ONLY day off this week, and then Justin will back at work and I'll have to wait til he's home again and by then I'll be 11 weeks..

needless to say, I was very emotional today,
and the ironic thing is, if I would still be living in oklahoma I was already on Soonercare and I wouldn't be having this problem...

:( ugh!

hopefully

Justin is home! finally. I was suppose to only work 6-cl but of course I got called in early and had to be at work at one which is exactly when he got home, needless to say I was not in the best mood today. especially after I was taking a shower and had some pretty bad pains in my stomach, so much i had to just sit in the shower. it didn't last too long, but it should scared me. There wasn't any blood, so i'm not extrememly worried.
Tomorrow, well since its 2 am. more like Today is my day off so I'm going to just drive over and turn in all my paperwork for the JPS network and hopefully If I ask to see someone that day I can maybe, just maybe get in to see a doctor. I hope so, I work the rest of the week and then Justin will be back at work and I won't have a vehicle.
Only thing I'm sad about is that if I do get to see the doctor and maybe hear the heartbeat Justin won't be there, since it would trouble to bring the kids along. I'll probably be waiting awhile and i'm sure they'd get restless.

I'm thinking of buying a Home Heart Doppler though, then I could hear my lil Cupcakes heartbeat anytime I want :)

Okay I should get back to bed

Roughneck baby stuff

freaking myself out

since Im STILL waiting to get approved for insurance, I can't go to the dr. I'm SOO worried that the baby doesn't have a heartbeat or theres something wrong. I mean all the other ladies on my boards have already heard their babies heartbeat, and a few have dropped the board because there wasn't one:(
I feel like such a horrible person .

horrible start

So I wake up today and my water is off... i work 10 hours a day so i'm never home when the apt office is open. so i left the money for the water bill in the Rent drop box , this was like 4 days ago.. apparently they haven't checked it because its off today... and I walk down there and of course they're at lunch and I need to take a shower to go to work at 3. ugh... then I stress out because I have no ride to work, I can't get ahold of Justins grandma, grandpa, or dad. luckily Justins aunt said she'll take me.. I AM SOOO tired of not having my own vehicle.
and after I pay the utilities, I pretty much have NO money left, so I can't go just buy a car.

Ugh :( I hate today.

and I finally hear from Justin today, for a whole two minutes, he said he'd call back when he woke up, but i'll be at work:(
I'm ready for this week to be over!