finally!

I finally got approved and got m mediciad stuff! so now I can go see a real dr!
I haven't been able to make an apt because I wasn't in the system, but I finally got to make one today! my first sonogram apt is Sept. 16 and then I meet with my dr on my birthday! sept 20th!
Justin will be here for the sonogram apt. which makes me so happy! we'll both see the baby together, and since i'll be 16 weeks.. MAYBE they'll tell me the sex, I hope so.! he actually leaves at 11 on the 20th and my apt is at 2:30 so he won't make that one
I'm so excited!
I've felt so anxious and like a bad person because i haven't been able to go to the dr. but I think I badgered the medicaid people enough , i mean i called them everyday! lol.

belly pic

this was taken last week, at 12 weeks 5 . the bottom of my stomach is getting harder. I can't tell any difference this week though.

oh the drama this last week has been.. too much for me! Im so tired of the stress of EX's!
ughh anyway...
I'm now in my second trimester! I finally got a caseworker and got my paperwork in for medicaid, but we've been playing phone tag for like a week. I'm going to call her again in the morning and just tell her to call me at work, my mananger said its fine .
Justin will be home again in 12 hrs.. I only got to talk to him once while he was gone and it wasn't under the good circumstances.. but I won't go into all that.
my morning sickness isn't as bad, but its still hits me every morning when I wake up. Root beer helps a lot though.
i'm writing in a journal, like letters to my baby. so he/she will know when they grow up how I felt during this time. its something i've always thought of doing if I got pregnant.

Justins aunts know.. and his dad apparently everyone but his grandma.. idk how long that will last, she may know already.. she said tonight " i know you shouldn't have wine in your situation but I think one glass would be fine" I don't know if she meant me watching the kids, or me being pregnant.. I asked his dad if he'd told her and he said no. so I have no clue. but I hope she just doesn't freak out.

anyway I have to finish cleaning.. and then get to bed.

So I originaly thought I'd go with a Round crib, but then My manager mentioned how hard to find and expensive the bedding will be, so I've been looking at Mini cribs, they're smaller but can still change into a toddler bed later on, which will save money since babys only stay in a crib for max two years. I'm still dissapointed that my baby won't have a real nursery. but I still want him/her to have their own space in our room. I found some cute bedding for 98$ at wal-mart, even comes with the mobile. heres the link
http://www.walmart.com/ip/Sophia-s-Garden-10-Piece-Nursery-in-a-Bag-Set/10983313

Thats if I have a girl, Of course I could have a boy too. lol.

I've found someone back in Oklahoma that can make me a Diaper bag, I want something different, but I don't wanna spend a lot of money. I can also get the babys name on it, so that'll be cool. only 50$. also she can make me a car seat cover, so That'll be cute! cuz I can't find one I like for a reasonable price, I can get a cheaper one, and just put the cover on, one no one else has:)
I'm also getting a custom made wipey case, for 20$ . So I'm excited about all that stuff!

I told two of Justins aunts tonight about the pregnancy. They were both excited for me, but I'm still gonna let Justin be the one who tells his grandma... i'm worried that won't be met with warm wishes. but idk.
for someone reason my grandpa has this idea we're getting married in october? I have no idea where he got that. I think he thinks that I'm going to hurry and get married now cuz I'm pregnant. Granted I would've liked to been married, but I do want a wedding. and thats just not possible right now..

okay I better go clean the house! Justin comes home in like 12 hours:D I'm so excited to see him!

rough day

I've got a horrible sinus migrane, and even thoughI thought my m/s was gone for the most part, nope not today. its been horrible. I feel so miserable.
I hope this goes away in the next hour, I've got to go to work. thankfully its only 5 hours today.
I've got so much cleaning to do before Justin gets home tomorrow too.
ugh...!