New Wife, New Life

I have been feeling like a frumpy old housewife the last few months, none of my clothes fit right, my hair always up in a messy bun, so for my birthday(the 20th) I bought 4 new outfits and a new pair of shoes, already had my nails and eyebrows done for the wedding , and I went and cut my hair and got carmel highlights! my hair was almost to the middle of my back, I got it trimmed right after Audrey but it hadn't been "CUT" in 2 years, and it'd been.. longer than that since I'd had any color done. I love it though! Its to my chin and shorter and stacked in the back, I feel like a new person.!
Not much has changed with us being married, except I can call him my husband and my name has changed, although Justin seems to like wearing his ring even though its too big, which I love because he said he'd never wear it outside of the ceremony.
I just love the idea that we're married and committed for life:)
I never realized how bad my anxiety and insecurities about him leaving me were until now, I used to have nightmares about it, now I just feel a calm in my heart.

Mr & Mrs.

We are married!!!
I was stressing up until I was walking down the stairs, we ran behind and didn't even start setting up until 4 and the clouds starting getting dark and the arch wasn't done, but it all got put together and everything looked better than I even imagined,thanks in big part to my Brother and sister in law and two bridesmaids who decorated the arch amazing! it looked better than I could have dreamed.
I didn't get started with my hair and makeup til 6 since we were running late with everything so the wedding got started about 30 minutes late, and even though right as the ceremony started it sprinkled a bit it NEVER rained!!!!
I got choked up during the first part of my vows and I had to calm myself or I would have bawled and not been able to finish them, Justin totally winged it and made everyone laugh with his " Samantha all that and more, thank you I love you"
I also put his ring on the wrong hand(oops!) lol
but it was perfect, and I had a blast and I think everyone else did too, our first dance was to "God Bless the Broken Road" and even though neither of us know how to dance it was Perfect<3 I danced with my grandpa to "I loved her first" and he danced a lot better than I did !
The reception looked exactly liked I envisioned with flickering lights in the mason jars and hanging lanterns from the tree.
The cake was amazing, (what little I got to taste of it) although we did cut it with the serving thing instead of the actual knife haha!
I am so happy that everything went the way it was suppose to and that I am finally Justin's wife!
Audrey did awesome too, she only cried for a second at the end of the ceremony, she was totally wore out by the end of the night and passed out as soon as we got home.
I can't believe I am a married woman!

My Vows
Justin,
You were the last thing I expected, your love took me by complete surprise. Saying I love you doesn't do justice to what I feel, You are my light in darkness,
my fairytale come true, I never knew a man could be so good, could make me feel so happy. I was a lost 19 yr old girl
when we met, and you have made me into the woman I am today.
You are my best friend, the love of my life, I count my blessings everyday that you came into my life, that against everything we've come up against we've just grown stronger and more in love.I love your stupid jokes, the way you
wake up singing random songs completely out of tune, I love how incredibly smart you are, and how you are the kindest person I've ever met, I still get butterflies everytime you walk through the door,and no matter how far you go, or how long your gone, I promise to always stand beside you, to
always believe in you, and I promise to spend the rest of my life loving you with everything I have, and to make you just as happy as you make me. I will love you to the moon and back. forever and ever, I'm yours.

and a link to two albums on Facebook with pictures, one is from my photographer and the other is just shots from guests
Wedding

Wedding 2

I am married to the love of my life and I have never been happier!!!

Never thought I'd be a bridezilla

I have often made fun of those crazy brides on the show Bridezilla, saying "Oh I would NEVER act like that" but now being 3 days til the wedding and being completely stressed out I can see how some of them act the way they do! It's like everyone around me got stupid for some reason!I'm really a laid back person, but I'm pretty much to my freak out point, I do believe I have called my mom and my best friend at least 3 times a day the past couple days threatening to strangle people.I blame myself though, I should have stuck with my original plan of NO bridesmaids, since this is where most of my stress is coming from.
I also should have not changed my entire wedding layout for extra people since now the wedding list has shrunk to its original size.
Lets just say I am glad I'm only doing this once, and god forbid something ever happen to Justin and I get re married I am totally going to Vegas!
On a happier note Justin comes home today, its been a lonely 2 weeks without him, also my mom will be here thursday, I am excited for her to see Audrey and how much she has grown.
Okay I must go , Audrey is crawlin away!!(did I mention she really crawls now and won't sit still for more than a stinkin second!.. time for new toys?!)

one week

One week til the wedding!!!!!!!
I'm so ready to be married, I'm nervous though, not sure why.
Also, my bridesmaid dresses got sent BACK to England.. yeah so I'm a bit stressed about trying to find two dresses the day before the wedding when my bridesmaids get here. UGH!
I'm also so ready for Justin to be home tuesday, we'll have tuesday and wednesday together before the craziness begins !!
I'm really hoping Audrey gets comfortable enough with my mom to let her hold her during the wedding.

6 month photos

Life is passing by

Audrey turned 6 months old on the 28th, she's sitting up all on her own now, and she's even started REALLY crawlin, she was army crawlin for a while but now she can get up on her knees and just go! two weeks from tomorrow is the wedding! I'm so ready to be married!
I had my bachelorette party last weekend, oh lord was I ever sick the next day! safe to say my party days are very much a thing of the past! thankfully Justin took care of me and Audrey all day.. what a wonderful man:) he also bought me a new wedding ring set!!
its so beautiful!!
well Audrey is trying to type so I gotta cut this short, i'll update with her 6 month pics later